its almost midnight…. but looks like slumber has shut its doors tight on me… yeah fear has been my faithful companion and today its like she was sent by the devil himself to lure me into her grip.
I fear the dissapointment That i will see in ur eyes…I fear the hurtful words you will hurl at me. I raise your hopes then end up failing you and making you hate me even more…but my dear son if only you knew ..the pain i go thru is endless
Your sharp words and the pressure you put on me forces me to lie
but its a burden i can carry no more..
pls dnt force me to want to die.
I am breaking from inside for failing you
but I dunno how to tell you
your endless demands are killing me like slow poison.
When will this cycle of pretence end
I wish for once you would understand
your demands weigh me down
they break my self esteem
please dnt push me to opt for the worse
Dnt force me to curse…..
Simaya
Unrefined Poetry 