1653
Season 3 / Phase 2
Writer: Akila Raza
Editor: Edward Wangamah

” Memories surface creating turmoil… churning feelings upside down…. Hang on there whispers the heart…..yet I watch my being fall apart..once again each part of me is scattered all over…each bit has a story to tell … The million pieces of an old fairy tale”

“Mama…” My voice was hoarse, I watched her fragile figure shivering with pain… I was barely Nine. She never liked me , although there was nothing that I didn’t do to please her but sometimes I wondered, whenever at any given time, if she had to make a choice …be it of sharing goodies which rarely came but when they did ..it was a treat, or shopping or even school trips…she always favoured Jacob…  Yes it was always that short punk I called my brother until the night ….that night that destroyed everything… That night which was the beginning of a never ending storm …. ” What happened that night ?” Sameer interrupted my thoughts and I gasped for Air…. My thoughts my emotions were churning in a million directions. Flora and Nora were listening to me patiently even though I wasn’t talking , my thoughts were audible but what I spoke with my mouth shut had no speed breaker… I looked at Sameer…” I am all mixed up, I can’t think straight…all thoughts are hitting me at one go… I am afraid to walk back into the memory Lane, if only you knew the storms I had faced, the disappointments I went through..I still get nightmares… There are wounds that I fear to touch because they hurt so bad …I will go mad” I sighed, I was trying not to cry , I was shaking, why the hell did I even think it was a good idea re visiting the past that would only blow me out of proportion, it had taken me several years to gather myself… I stood up .” I am sorry I can’t do this, I can’t afford to throw myself into that pit again ” I said. Flora and Nora didn’t react… Sameer moved closer to me…this time I didn’t flinch , I was not afraid of ghosts as much as I was afraid to re visit the lanes I had so narrowly escaped .. to hell with 1653, fuck karma, what’s the worse that could happen….I sighed. ” The worse that could happen has a  list that  is endless Amy” Flora finally spoke, her voice was void of emotion… I raised my eye brows….she went on ” for instance Sameer will not be able to clear his shit, you will never heal and bla bla bla…..” She said. ” Big deal” I responded… Big Mistake….Flora came closer, I felt chills it was like cold ice cubes down my spine one moment and in the next it was fire dripping, my heart beat was in two different directions…I know it sounds absurd but as the wise say …the sting of the wasp is only known to him who has been stung.
” Take your time but Amy..we are not leaving until you have faced your demons headon and tamed them ….same applies with us all”  flora sounded serious… Sameer shook his head … ” Take time? We have only 6 days …. There is no time Flora, how the hell are we going to clear this crap if we decide to move at this ungodly pace?” He sounded angry,
” well then you shouldn’t have fucked up at the first place” came a rude reply….Sameer and Flora turned…it was Nora, she was angry, she rarely got mad but when she did …it was purely savage. Nora floated closer and looked at me ,
..” Amy listen, you must fight ur fears and face those demons …if you don’t we will do the honours for you and trust me you won’t like it!!!” With that said , she floated to the far end of the room and hung on the ceiling upside down .. I sat on the floor with my knees hugged , I was trying to control my breathe….did these ungodly creatures think it was so easy ? ” It is if you gather enough courage to face it head on…” This time the voice was gentle …just like the one I heard in my dreams when fear haunted me….I looked up and saw Flora floating above my head..I sighed…” I need to sleep” I whispered, Sameer looked frustrated but flora smiled….” Sleep” she whispered …